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Stories, poetry & general musings of Rebecca Haywood, a modern-day Shaman with a penchant for bringing the divine into the human experience.

Tolantongo Springs: Soul Retrieval Ceremony - A testimonial from the heart


“I never felt like I had come all the way back into my body after those deep, painful moments in my childhood… I felt like my body wasn’t home…” @jcassia Can you relate? Whether it is childhood trauma, ancestral wounding, or a more recent disturbance, this feeling is a common one. You may not identify it as an absence of soul but notice the absence of life force —depression, disassociation, brain fog—...
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Teotihuacán, Mexico: A testimonial to the power of this journey


“To feel whole again” …a presence that so many of us seek. Teotihuacan offers that gift freely. “As long as you are willing and open to receive, it will be everything you need it to be.” @jcassia We are returning to Teotihuacan in April for “Root to Rise”, with shamanic Fire Cleansings at the sacred caves of Teotihuacán, a Soul Retrieval ceremony in the mothering waters of Tolantongo, and a Solar Eclipse...
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Fire Cleansing in Teotihuacán


And the storm parted to make way for their healing tears. Gracias Tlaloc. Tlazokamati Tonantzin tlali. Ometeotl   And thank you to all the participants of this journey for bearing your hearts to the fire… especially to my shamanic healing student @cyn1972 whose growth has made this eagle mama proud, and to @angel.rohrer for fearlessly sharing her process with you. “How else are they gonna know what the f#*k we do here!?”...
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One Womb, Many Hearts: a not-so-personal story

One Womb, Many Hearts: a not-so-personal story
When all had completed their process at the Healing Well, I decided to take a sip of the portal myself. I thought I was there for my own healing— a little womb housekeeping. And I was. But it was a much larger womb than the one my skin held, and it took me down.   I dropped to the ground in a wave of sorrow… all the traumatized wombs of Gaza, Israel, Palestine—the...
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Womb Autonomy: Teotihuacán, 2023


Standing in the Plaza of Water, we prepared ourselves for the deep womb work that comes at the Healing Well in the Temple of Women. This was unprecedented— to visit the Temple of Women on the first day of a journey. But it was what the ancestors of Teotihuacán asked of us.   We began at the Pyramid of the Moon and the home of Chalchiuhtlicue, the goddess of earth water—lakes, rivers,...
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Teotihuacán: A beautiful message received during my prayers for Israel


The skinny: “Let us remember we need not suffer the suffering. This does not serve. What serves is to love. So remember your heart. Remember your joy. Do not feel guilty for your joy. Know that it is a gift you are giving because the more that you love, the more love there is.”
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Teotihuacán: A testimonial and an invitation


So sweet of my student to make this reel about our journeys in Teotihuacán. She has been with me since she was thirteen years old! Now she is an apprentice in my Shamanic Healing circle of sisters and will be assisting me on our next Teotihuacán journey in October. This is the greatest gift to me— to watch the bird fly the nest. I love it.   If you would like to...
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ENDARKENMENT

ENDARKENMENT
In my initial quest for happiness, I was so focused on the light that I neglected the underworld of my shadow. The shadow is that place in which we hide away our secrets—our shame, our regrets, our lies—and each secret holds our power captive. Until I embraced my Endarkenment, I would never experience true Enlightenment. I had to bare my shadow in the light of day, eclipse the perfect sun with my perfect...
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ENDARKENMENT

ENDARKENMENT
In my initial quest for happiness, I was so focused on the light that I neglected the underworld of my shadow. The shadow is that place in which we hide away our secrets—our shame, our regrets, our lies—and each secret holds our power captive. Until I embraced my Endarkenment, I would never experience true Enlightenment. I had to bare my shadow in the light of day, eclipse the perfect sun with my perfect...
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Teotihuacán: A testimonial to the power of this journey


I love witnessing the bloom of one’s heart unfold—the plume of their petals reveal, the stretch of their delight, and the hush of awe as they return to themselves in mid-flight. It’s not too late for you to take flight with us in October! “Sacred Space” is going to be full of healing opportunities… Egg Cleansing, Fire Cleansing, and Soul Retrieval… all in the powerful container of Teotihuacán’s sacred sites AND during...
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A Heart Opening Water Blessing


Let’s make some healing water, shall we? And with one of my favorite sacred songs, Ábrete Corazón (Open your Heart).   So this healing water was made specifically for opening the heart, but you can intend any and all wishes into your healing water. All water is magnetic and receives your frequency (including the water in your body). So sing your prayers mindfully, my friends!   SONG TRANSLATION: Open your heart Open...
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The Human Heart of the Shaman: Part 7

The Human Heart of the Shaman: Part 7
“The shaman is a bridge between the unseen, and the body is the shaman’s bridge to the seen.” The first time Sarita saw my trauma, she turned my world on its head by telling me to go have sex. It was great— an 87 year-old grandmother, holding a Guadalupe candle, asking me how long it had been. I’m not sure what I was more embarrassed about— admitting the length of the duration or...
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The Human Heart of the Shaman: Part 6

The Human Heart of the Shaman: Part 6
A shaman becomes the medicine by embracing the poison. She saw it right away— the trauma that gripped the throat of my feminine power. She described it as my sadness and my curse, touching her hand to my heart, “but we can heal it, Mija. Gracias a Dios. You are in the right place now.” One was always in the right place with Sarita and she always had just the thing. That was...
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The Human Heart of the Shaman: Part 5

The Human Heart of the Shaman: Part 5
A shaman makes themself as an offering; their personal journey surrendered as a means to healing the collective. I remember the moment so clearly now. The words came out of my mouth and landed with a gravity that cut through my adolescent world, “Let me take it for them.” I had been raped just months before and the painful memory of the act lingered in my cells and weighed on my heart. It...
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The Human Heart of the Shaman: Part 4

The Human Heart of the Shaman: Part 4
A shaman’s power is called to action by the compassion born in their suffering. Learning of Sarita’s personal calling created a necessary shift in me. It showed me her human side which gave me hope that, despite my boring suburban roots, I too could become as powerful as she. It also opened my eyes to how deeply one’s personal calling influences their eventual practice and the gifts they bring to it. Sarita’s specialty...
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The Human Heart of the Shaman: Part 3

The Human Heart of the Shaman: Part 3
A shaman must be free to move between worlds and, in order to do so, we must be free from ourselves and the mediums we use. Life threw in an ironic but healing twist when, a full year after we met, I finally received a translation for her prayers. Her work bridged the traditions of her ancestors with the faith healing she learned later in life, so she prayed both in the name...
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The Human Heart of the Shaman: Part 2

The Human Heart of the Shaman: Part 2
A shaman is a bridge to the divine mystery within all things. Living with Madre Sarita revealed the human, the woman, the mother, and even the little girl. We would fall asleep to her favorite novella and wake at 3am to pray; tend to a morning of clients and sneak off to the casino to play. She embraced her humanity and her divinity as one, and that’s what she instilled in me. Though...
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The Human Heart of the Shaman: Part 1

The Human Heart of the Shaman: Part 1
I inherited more than a lineage of healing; I inherited the lineage of a woman. Sara Vasquez was one of the most formidable healers of our time and a phenomenal example of shameless feminine power— the perfect reflection for a twenty-year old girl awakening to herself as a healer and as a woman. When I met her, she was an 87 year old Mexican curandera (healer), affectionately called Madre Sarita, who stubbornly spoke...
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Soul Retrieval in Tolantongo, Mexico


My Abuelita always said to follow fire with water... This will be the path of our October journey to Teotihuacán, "Sacred Space". After receiving Abuelita's intensive Fire Cleansing ceremony, participants will reintegrate with the beautiful watery ritual of a Soul Retrieval. It will be my first time facilitating this water blessing in Teotihuacán. Though I have initiated countless Fire Cleansings there (after all, Teotihuacán is a fire unto itself), this journey is...
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Trauma Healing in Teotihuacán, Mexico


The potency of trauma healing in the container of Teotihuacán is beyond words... we are able to access the mind and body in a different way, infusing your neural pathways with the energy of this powerful place-an energy rich with a deep history of transformation. It is an opening like no other and it allows you to clear places within you that may have seemed unreachable before, stuck in their somatic patterning,...
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