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Musings of an Awakening Spirit

Stories, poetry & general musings of Rebecca Haywood, a modern-day Shaman with a penchant for bringing the divine into the human experience.

Emptying Out

Emptying Out
Woke up this morning overwhelmed with grief… and with gratitude, with the sweetest sorrow… and with a heart-piercing joy. This is the way with the watery grave of emotion. When we allow ourselves to lay down in it, we are swallowed into the whole of life’s expression—the agony and the ecstasy. Neither holds the other nor holds us to the one, but moves through like the ocean wave that carries all that it...
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An Emotional Storm

An Emotional Storm
Some sit out the storm. Others use it to take higher flight. I love a good storm— the undeniable winds that blow right through me, and the surge of an ocean that carves away my edges and calls me deeper, higher, louder. Of course, there are times when we are meant to hunker down—to be the stillness in the center of its fury—watching, waiting, listening for its howl to return to calm. But...
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Gifts for the Ghost

Gifts for the Ghost
“Gifts for the Ghost” is a series of videos that offer a set of tools and practices for healing trauma or any psychosomatic imbalance. And it’s FREE! No need to even subscribe to my newsletter. They truly are my gift to you which I am so happy to offer. 💝Each video is posted here, plus an introductory article on "Emotional Presence"... Welcome to Gifts for the Ghost,A set of tools and practices for...
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Shameless Feminine

Shameless Feminine
“Shameless Feminine” Beloved, I come to you now,Pulled by your sleeping scarlet dreams,Your flowers of yearning,Your earth’s turning, That I may reach into this vessel —Beyond feast of ghost and Pain possessing pleasure— And bend my love into you, Become your trestle, Till you rise upon my kisses And your light breaks only into dawn— Never a slave To their empty grave No more. - Rh
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Forgiveness: An Act of Self-Love

Forgiveness: An Act of Self-Love
"Forgiveness sheds the bones of yesterday and bares her naked soul to the light of today." Having been raped multiple times in my life, I have a lot of experience with forgiveness. I held onto my anger and pain as if they would protect me from further trespasses when in truth, I was held by them and by my wounded memories which had become my greatest perpetrator. I was in purgatory, afraid to...
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To All the Boys

To All the Boys
“It’s not worth prosecuting”, I was told after the detective had “lost” all the evidence. Evidence plucked, swabbed, and stripped from my shaking body—gone, and with it—my credibility. Even before that, the same detective had attempted to silence me with his shaming inquisition. And now it seemed he had won. But he hadn’t. I wouldn’t let him. The way that I won, in spite of him, had nothing to do with spite at...
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Talkin' About Your Revolution

Talkin' About Your Revolution
So much trauma has been awakened in us collectively—new memories, old memories, and the ancient ones that have been carried in our cells. So much to feel and yet such a gift and a medicine to have it here, on the surface, where we can embrace it as we never did before. And we aren’t just revisiting our trauma, we are walking through reporting it, prosecuting it, speaking our story and naming our...
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Let it Burn

Let it Burn
Weinstein, Cosby, Kavanaugh. A fire has been lit and though it may seem to scorch our earth, it also ushers in a newfound fertility. That’s why we must embrace this fire and let it burn— allow its flames to lick at our wounds, to ignite the pain, the shame, the rage unsung and stir the ashes that once buried it.  As a survivor of multiple sexual assaults, I found myself quietly weeping with...
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Retreat Journal ~ Teotihuacan 2018

Retreat Journal ~ Teotihuacan 2018
Day 1: Following my nose to God. Wellll, it has been a magically creative (and full) past couple of months. It has truly been a ‘standing in both worlds’ experience— completing my contribution to another collaborative book (WootWoot!) while navigating the busyness of life. I had to bow out for a bit so I could bow in and honor this space of healing and change. And now, I am so happy to emerge...
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I Ask & I Recieve

I Ask & I Recieve
I ask and I receive. Sometimes we don’t even bother to ask. Other times, we forget to wait for a response... or we simply don’t believe we deserve one (which kinda means we never REALLY asked, right?). I have a new student who wanted to join our upcoming Healer’s retreat, Shamanic Healing Practicum, but wasn’t sure how to afford it. She was about to close the door on it. I told her what...
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Healing & the Human Mind

Healing & the Human Mind
I want to address a question I have received from some of you. It is a question I too once held and that held me away from embracing shamanic healing— If Spirit guides the healing, then why do we need the form? Well, we may not need it but the client does. The form—the words of a prayer, our hands on their body, or the aroma of incense wafting through their mind—provides a...
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Building an Altar

Building an Altar
I like to tell a story with my altars and let the building of it become a healing in itself… INTEND: Like a good story, I start with an intent or theme. Mine was to connect, heal and balance the feminine within me and in humanity. GATHER: With my intent at the lead, I wander my home in search of objects, elements, medicine. Some are clear right away—the how and where they fit in—whereas others...
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Imagination is the Doorway

Imagination is the Doorway
Imagination is the doorway... to everything! Really? Really. Gosh, there is so much that I could say here— how we imagine ourselves into being from our physical health to our financial—but for now, I will discuss the healing magic of our imagination… Beyond great stories and revolutionizing innovations, imagination is a means of manifesting the anything we desire, including healing. Of course, we must put action behind our dreams in order for them...
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Fire Cleansing: Discovering Immunity

Fire Cleansing: Discovering Immunity
This is the story of how I found true immunity, as a human and as a shaman, and set myself free from the ‘Black Magic’ of emotional poison and vexed stories that can contaminate our internal world…  EYES TO THE UNSEEN:It was a beautiful Saturday in Descanso, California. Madre Sarita had a full class of healing students and this weekend was all about Fire Cleansing. I was excited to receive her teaching again....
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Deeper Waters

Deeper Waters
The storms of life roll through.  Some are natural, others unimaginable.  We face them as individuals, as communities and as a world.  They bring fear, the courage born from it, and the reminder of what is truly important as we watch our landscape change forever. In the midst of a storm, our animal self is there reacting in the name of survival.  The adrenaline kicks in to sharpen our mind and fuels an...
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Receptivity: A Vessel Surrendered

Receptivity: A Vessel Surrendered
Ralph Waldo Emerson wrote that receptivity brings us into an “original relation to the universe”; I can't think of a better place to stand as a Healer or as a human. For receptivity is one of our greatest gifts, and its key lies in our nature — in what is inherent to us without the paved streets of the mind.  What is receptivity, but an opening through which we receive. Yet it is...
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A Tale of Two Minds

A Tale of Two Minds
This is the tale of two minds, The Domesticated Mind and The Soul Mind, and how, through the Toltec practice of Dreaming, they came into one. So what the heck is the Domesticated Mind, the Soul Mind or this thing called Dreaming? Well, as you may know, I had the privilege of a direct apprenticeship with don Miguel Ruiz, author of the Four Agreements, and his mother, Madre Sarita, renowned Toltec Curandera. So...
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Retreat Journal ~ Teotihuacan 2017

Retreat Journal ~ Teotihuacan 2017
Day 1: So good to be 'home' with my Papi! We had such a beautiful first day with the group, dreaming Teo through the eyes of the Healer. We started our day with Madre Sarita's practice of communing with the elements, praying with them and using the energy of the Sun to bless and purify water as a 'balsam of healing for humanity'. Then into Teo to commune with the elements within...Atetelco -...
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Leap of Faith

Leap of Faith
So often we focus on what we DON’T want and we end up aiming right for it.  Why?  Well, our attention is the channel that directs our intent and so wherever we focus, there we are.   I have said before that life is a series of awakenings, and that each of those awakenings is a stepping stone forming our path to self-realization.  Sometimes the stones are set further apart and require a...
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Call to Action

Call to Action
One important step in manifesting our desire is a simple one — to listen.  Once we have lit our candles and said our prayers, literally or figuratively, we must listen for Life’s answer.  For the answer will inevitably come with a call to action.  In my last blog post, ‘Crying Prayers’, I spoke to ‘becoming the invitation’ by surrendering to the asking and that, no matter our faith or our desperation, Life is...
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